Lunatiquely,
Lemon
I am a contradiction, a living breathing oxymoron.
I am a perfectionist who is too lazy to pursue perfection.
I am a narcisst with an inferior complex.
I am not crazy, not insane just slightly unstable mentally with highly volatile emotions.
I am a fundamentally selfish person.
I am Lemon.
Lunatiquely Lemon.
Or in simpler terms,
The epic phail attempts at philosophical musing by a yellow, sour citrus fruit that claims to be sweet ^^
Maybe its cuz deadlines are due, I need more sleep, my eye is being a bitch, withdrawal symptoms are being bitchy too, YOG is devouring my Saturdays, I miss training like so goddamn much, I miss dancing, I miss sitting down with a nice book and losing myself for a few hours, I miss my yaoi, I miss my kitsune, I miss mossp, I miss aiki peeps, I miss JCG crazies, I miss cosplaying ..... I could just go on FOREVER.
I dunno, maybe when the worst is over, I'll feel better and not so .... scared.
Fear has been lurking around me recently.
Fear of fear and changes to be specific.
And now that I can't close my eyes to sleep, I'll just lie in bed and stare at the ceiling and think.
My eyes hurt like a friggin bitch.
I can't sleep cuz closing my left eye hurts so both my eyes are tired.
And the eye drops sting.
They don't soothe my eyes at all and it tastes bitter.
The cream blurs the vision in my left eye and is super oily and doesn't stay in my eye.
I need to get on with Basics.
It is due this FRIDAY!!!!
But its more or less done so just a lil bit more work.
AM/FEM is my main headache now.
Persevere, my dear. The end is in sight. 19th July.
Sorry for freaking you out but I never ever thought about leaving. I'll try to be less insecure and have more faith in myself. -huggles-
Should I just do my eyes a favor and dig them out since they already feel like popping out any moment?
(PS: Maybe my eye got problem because of something that popped up on FB again. *Hint: BP as quoted by Zz*)
Lunatiquely yours,
Lemon
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